What if I Wanted to Break?

I got to thinking about the hip-hop festival held on my campus this past weekend, and I remembered the huge amount of people in attendance who are not my school's students. Now, when campus safety is at it's tightest because of a student being stabbed a few weeks ago, we are inviting random people to hang out? I know that the school wants to improve its appearance with urban and race relations, but seriously, was that the best way to do it?
Besides that, I attended the festival one night and it was really fun and I can't wait for next year's. I feel like the whole situation was a conundrum. Sometimes, I think that our school needs to drop this whole "one with the urban community" thing and close the campus. I mean, our city definitely needs improvement, but it shouldn't put our students in danger. Yesterday, though, I was appalled to hear that a girl got a ride to the other side of campus from a campus safety officer and told him, "Yeah, I'm really scared to walk around campus at night with all these black people around." Sheesh, when will people learn that someone's race doesn't make them unsafe? I mean, there have been a couple of muggings on campus this year perpetrated by black community members, but that is probably just representative of the fact that the community is composed of mainly minorities. Stick any private open college in an impoverished city and you're just asking for trouble. Oh well.

Between the Lines of Fear and Blame

Today I was in the school paper for attending the American Medical Students Association conference in DC. Although I am not a med student yet--merely a pre-med--this whole article got me thinking about my plans for a major. I realized that since I have been at school, the majority of my time that is not spent on sleep or schoolwork is used for reading the classics. Maybe my true passion is becoming an English major. Maybe that's why I needed to hang out with the boy...it would all make sense to me then. I also found out that I'm going to be an RA next year. w00t! I have no monies; this will be a good thing for me. I'll be able to exercise my authority over next year's freshmen, and make awesome door decorations (Yay arts and crafts). I am getting really burnt out of science right now, especially since my F+ on my latest bio exam (never saw that coming). I am sure I can make it up on the final, but knowing that I have a C in the class right now sucks bad.
I still haven't gotten any money back from the school after the AMSA conference so I couldn't pay off my credit card today. I hate being so broke. I have been selling "Free Books" from the Math, Computing, and Engineering Center on Amazon.com in order to break the cycle. I've made $46 dollars so far. I'll get out of this hole soon, I just hope I don't drown in it first.
I am actually going to do some homework tonight...maybe.